Salary/mth: 1K++, or hopefully more if I get commission from selling credit cards.

Contribution back to the house: 20% -> 800$ left.

Transportation fees: $100 -> 700$ left.

Usual allowance I used to get when I was schooling but not getting anymore: $450 -> $250 left.

So. $250 more as compared to my usual income while schooling. $250 more for stuffing myself into very uncomfy work clothes that I couldn't keep up with after a week and decided to try to smoke casual outfits as formal by throwing on heels. $250 more for a very limited social life and a very unhealthy softdrinks + crackers diet(bcos at the office it's freeflow so just spam). $250 more for compromising all those times I could stay by the com and bid for eBay items(!!!). $250 for the rush from West to East between both jobs on Wed to Fri and look like an idiot always running to the clinic from Eunos Station. $250 more for getting the call slammed down on me 73% of the time when I do the telesales.

...........$250 more for so much fuck.

I really want to look on the brighter side of life, but....... to look forward to Saturdays so much rather than Fridays, to not dread Mondays as much as how I dread Wensdays, it's just a total shift in my blues for the days in the week.

I hope I actually make it through these 5 months in a long term goal. And in short term goal, making it through this week without calls or smses while he's outfield.

I never knew it would have made this big of an impact when it was already habitual before I realise it, to stay by my phone at 930 every night because I know he'll call me without fail no matter what.. Even asking me to hold on the phone while he takes a 3mins(yeah, 3mins) shower.

I'm so tired to keep up with so much everyday, I'm only posting this while waiting for my hair to dry so I could put my tired eyes and worn out complexion to some good rest.

Will upload tons of pictures during the weekend if I'm not lazy..

(those on top are my bu dao kitties btw........ so cute right.)