Saturday, March 27, 2010
3 alarm clocks to wake me up in the morning
6.45am and Derek would call from camp(sneaking to the toilet just to do so ._.) just so it'll be the first voice I hear when I wake up in the morning. And when the clock strikes 6.55, my handphone alarm would go off on a 5mins interval snooze. And the third one comes from the traditional 'won't stop ringing until you switch it off' kind of alarm clock that I placed just next to my bathroom so I'll be sure I'm up to walk that distance across my room to switch it off.Now, it's down to two.
COS DEREK IS GOING FOR 8-5 FOR NS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No not complaining, not complaining even though he wakess up later than me and bang4 gang1 earlier than me. FUCKING 5PM. Ever since wed he's been distracting me from work by flooding me with smses, damn annoying.
So every night feels like a book-out friday night now!!
And hopefully the interview gets through and I don't need to suffer any more hardship from now onwards.
Anyway, we fish spa-ed all the way at AMK last Sat night with Jacky and Kaihui. I tok the wheel behind Jack's bike cos my loser boyfriend was still sleepy after down-ing a can of red bull.
Happened to snap this coincidentally that Sat noon and pardon my horrible painted nails and of cos my ugly bulbous little toe. Pretty confident I could clinch the ugliest toes award anytime. But quite cute la hor cute and stubby. The fishes got all the dead skin off the sides of my toes, best thing to happen ever considering how often I've been wearing heels because of work. So often that sometimes flat pumps feel so comfy they're like Havaianas to me already.
AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT HAVEN'T TRIED THIS COOL SHIT?
Medusa legs all those fishes tickle you like no fcking tomorrow, I took awhile to get used to the feeling of it. How jialat I am I can't be worse than Kh that took 25 mins to get her feet into the water when our session was only for 30mins HHAAHHAH!!
I wanted to continue this post with pics of Yanjia and Liting when we town-ed. But I'm tired. Qing ming tmr at 630, and it's 2.45am right now.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
People just can't get my name right
I know it's my parents' fault to be so butt itchy, having to spell my name in such an abnormal way. Abygail, instead of Abigail. BUT I MEAN IT'S OUTRIGHT OBVIOUS IT'S PRONOUNCED THE SAME WAY... NO?I get people asking me if I act cute when I purposely spell it with a Y instead of an I. No seriously................ HOW WOULD THAT MAKE ME CUTE IN ANY WAY?
So it's been only the second week into working at RBS and the colleagues have already started to make fun of my name. Heibi, Ebi, A-pui-gail(ah-pui girl). Last one with courtesy of Tania sharing it with them. I mean no I'm cool with it cos really I don't mind. At least they get my name 80% correct.
Then yesterday, while I was out with Yj and Ting at Ion for dinner. This telemarketer from Fitness First called me up and told me that I won a free VIP pass to their gym in a lucky draw. Being a telemarketer myself at the moment I knew it was inhuman of me if I didn't spare him any sympathy and so I entertained him for awhile and later gently rejecting him for the VIP pass simply because I was really lazy to walk down to Paragon to collect it. I was already being fucking nice when I was almost at peak being irritated with his pretty obvious pinoy accent even though you could tell he was trying really hard to disguise it, and I knew he had problems pronouncing my name when he started his opening line 'Hi is this miss ____' much softer as compared to the rest of his convo.
It's ok, really.
It wasn't until he msged me 2 hours later when I didn't turn up to collect it...
'Hi Alaygain, what time would you be coming down to collect the pass? Fitness first - Justin.'
I was then convinced he was a damn loser pinoy that probably failed English starting from the age of 10 and had a hamster brain that he misspelt my name to such an extent and had no other job he could qualify for, he had no choice but to resort to building muscles just because it seemed decent enough to his family friends relatives back in his loser home village to have a job in a gym that's in Orchard.
I was so WTF I couldn't process so I showed Yj the msg and told her to reply for me I couldn't bear to look at how my name was spelt.
And she replied
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'Sorry I think my body's too perfect. I don't think I'll need it already.'
MEGA LOL HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHA
Even if I would want the card I wouldn't even dare to step into Fitness First Paragon anymore HAHHAHA even when typing this I'm still laughing. I quote it word for word. That bitch Yj just threw my face into the Pacific Ocean, the sea's so big it's impossible to get it back.
Then he could still reply, 'Haha. Okay. Good for you.'
No wonder they say got muscles no brains.
Derek may be booking out tmr, so he says. Better not false hope me.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Every other Sunday evening I find myself taking heavy steps slowly to the bus stop for a long bus ride back home, with long steady breaths and a sinking heart. It's the same bullshit every Sunday when I know it's another 5 weekdays to get through the motion before I get to see you again.
I could start missing you already even when I'm on the bus home, and I would read and re-read the short letters we would write to each other throughout the week we're apart, exchanging them when you're booked out. Felt stupid and dumb when you suggested it the first time round, but I did it anyway... And it became a sort of escapism whenever I needed you and knew you could never be there. It didn't feel like an obligation to write everyday, it was in fact, comfort to me when I could feel you in my days and vice versa for you as well.
I do my best to keep us together, doing everything possible within my reach and I know you are too. No, I'll never leave you in the lurch, no matter how numb or tired I may already feel holding us together.. Because I would only be lesser than what I am without you.
I know how you want this to both be our very last. Your actions speak so much more than the words standing by itself, the things you do and how much you've sacrificed in comparison to how much I've done. No one has ever made me feel as special as how you put me to be, and you do it without even trying.
Quitting is one thing that we've always argued about. I never thought I would hear those words rolling off your tongue ever. But today, you told me you're going to be quitting for me. You're quitting, when nicotine means so much to you that you were charged sneaking 2 extra ciggs for your smoke break while camping outfield. You're quitting, even when you knew I'd come to terms to accept that nicotine would never be out of your dictionary for life.
You know, it doesn't even matter if you failed quitting. The point is the real reason behind your decision made. It shows how much I mean to you.
And you have no fucking idea how much this means to me.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Some random night more than two weeks ago, when we were both sad little birds, far away from the boyfriends(mine in camp, hers halfway across the globe) so we decided to get economical orange juice from 7/11 while she had Absolut very well disguised in a Ice Mountain mineral water bottle and did our own drinks at some random playground near Siglap.... oh those nostalgic best friend nights out.
I know I don't take As but with everyone around me that were all kanchiong spiders going crazy one day before results were out...... I ACTUALLY FELT STRESSED AS WELL? HAHA LIKE WTF RIGHT.
Took the car and headed to Changi V the night before results were out to look at bapoks and have pratas.
Every army guy's fav place. Ok derek went Tekong for outfield cannotch make fun.
I know right I was a bareface. And that beanie isn't mine, it's Miko's disguise for his pubic-like hair to stay tame. Not really working as we can see.
It was Play, two days after papers ended. I know that was a bloody long time ago.... like three weeks back hahaha.
Cheryl just lose like pig like that
Tsk sometimes I think my mum should see how Jackee drives then she'll never think I'm not ready to drive anymore.
Family portrait, feeling it?!
Pei(ugly face)shi
AND THEN JACKEE TRIED TO IMITATE HAHAHHAAHHAHA
Wtf there was a police raid at 2plus in the end after Pei and Jackee left earlier, so Kit Cheryl Hua and I just walked over to Maxwell Centre to eat and chill and talk... Why do we always end up doing this after clubbing at Play??!
Half a bottle of vodka left there.... Chances of going back on Thursday lesbian nights are pretty slim with internship going on right now.
Derek and I attica-ed last week with the Price siblings and others.
See Derek's disapproving look with me and alcohol, hahahhaa that was why we left much earlier when I was ultra high by 2am. Told me we're going to the toilet so I followed. Before I know it he pulled me out of the club and we sat by the bridge awhile before I kept complaining I feel like I'm gonna fall off the bridge anytime did he decide that I'm too high. Started biting him all over when we were in the cab and only apologised the next morning when I woke up next to him feeling sane. Disclaimer... I wasn't drunk I was just, really high. And when I'm high I have to bite.
Did some room keeping over the week when I was dead free (as compared to now).
Re-organised my accessories corner.
Packed up clothes I didn't know why I bought in the first place into bags, and dumped it to the guest room so my room would look neater. And I would look like I have lesser clothes so I wouldn't think so much buying more.
Ok everyone knows I'm living in denial to say I have no clothes when this is only 1/4 of the amount of clothes I actually own. NEED TO SELL THEM BAD BUT NO FUCKING TIME!!!
Bought this for therapeutic nights. Not that it's bright enough to lit up the entire room, but it suffice well enough. And no I didn't get ripped off from those sprees with a 100% profit margin.. Bought it from a direct source at an unbelievable price heh heh I feel so shopping-clever.
I still have more pictures from the 500d but I'm lazy to load it up shall save it for another time this entry is enough of picture vomit AND I AM SO SAD I WANT TO ABANDON MY CANON 500D for the 550D!!!! (looks at imee and pout)
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Other random things that's been going on amidst all this stupid work shit.1) Jayjay gave birth to 6 on March 7!!! Kinda failed to mention this in my previous post I didn't know why..
Pro:
Apparently she decided that giving birth at 3am in the morning was the best timing ever that all of us were fast asleep we weren't with her when she was delivering.
Con:
A bridge died when it suffocated inside of her while its legs were out first, since we weren't present to pull it out in time it couldn't breathe. Few days later another died as well because it couldn't open up its mouth to feed on her milk.
Pls don't say I'm a lousy owner...... I did my best and I'm sad ok.
2) Pa just bought Mumsy a Volvo station wagon and when he went, 'And we're not selling the Saab' I WAS SO FUCKING OVER THE DAMN MOON. Will probably be driving the Saab as my own next weeeeek!
Pro:
WELL DUH THERE'S SO MANY GOOD PARTS TO THIS NO?
Con:
If I buang, $5k insurance flat I'll have to bear. On top of that, a full tank costs 1-mthr-2-fcking-0 bucks. You tell me how?
If I buang, $5k insurance flat I'll have to bear. On top of that, a full tank costs 1-mthr-2-fcking-0 bucks. You tell me how?
3) I bought Derek new shoes HAHHAHHHAHA
Pro:
You have no idea how much he hates shopping so persuading him to Town is like wanting his damn life but yes it's fixed his Adidas Vespa shoes are so chio and he obviously needed new shoes with his old one full of holes, it took me months to persuade him to get a new pair even though I said I was gonna get it for him.
Con:
You know what they always say when you buy shoes for your boyfriend/girlfriend?!?!?
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They will walk away from you :(
It's always good to play safe but ughhh how do I undo this omen shit?
4) I want to pierce.
Pro:
Badly.
Con:
I can't take it even by looking at how it's done over at Youtube.
I know la crazy la but I've been wanting it for quite awhile already, I think if I'll really get it no one will friend me anymore.
Ok that's it my hair is dry.
Gdnight!
Monday - 0845 - 1815 @ RBS Commonwealth
Tuesday - 0845 - 1815 @ RBS Commonwealth
Wednesday - 0845 - 1815 @ RBS Commonwealth, 1900-2030 @ Eunos Clinic
Thursday - 0845 - 1815 @ RBS Commonwealth, 1900-2030 @ Eunos Clinic
Friday - 0845 - 1815 @ RBS Commonwealth, 1900-2030 @ Eunos Clinic
Salary/mth: 1K++, or hopefully more if I get commission from selling credit cards.
Contribution back to the house: 20% -> 800$ left.
Transportation fees: $100 -> 700$ left.
Usual allowance I used to get when I was schooling but not getting anymore: $450 -> $250 left.
So. $250 more as compared to my usual income while schooling. $250 more for stuffing myself into very uncomfy work clothes that I couldn't keep up with after a week and decided to try to smoke casual outfits as formal by throwing on heels. $250 more for a very limited social life and a very unhealthy softdrinks + crackers diet(bcos at the office it's freeflow so just spam). $250 more for compromising all those times I could stay by the com and bid for eBay items(!!!). $250 for the rush from West to East between both jobs on Wed to Fri and look like an idiot always running to the clinic from Eunos Station. $250 more for getting the call slammed down on me 73% of the time when I do the telesales.
...........$250 more for so much fuck.
I really want to look on the brighter side of life, but....... to look forward to Saturdays so much rather than Fridays, to not dread Mondays as much as how I dread Wensdays, it's just a total shift in my blues for the days in the week.
I hope I actually make it through these 5 months in a long term goal. And in short term goal, making it through this week without calls or smses while he's outfield.
I never knew it would have made this big of an impact when it was already habitual before I realise it, to stay by my phone at 930 every night because I know he'll call me without fail no matter what.. Even asking me to hold on the phone while he takes a 3mins(yeah, 3mins) shower.
I'm so tired to keep up with so much everyday, I'm only posting this while waiting for my hair to dry so I could put my tired eyes and worn out complexion to some good rest.
Will upload tons of pictures during the weekend if I'm not lazy..
(those on top are my bu dao kitties btw........ so cute right.)
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Sorry but I'm too busy to blog life is so fucking tiring I know I'm just here to whine because there's no one else to whine to besides Derek whose in camp and busy and.... overthinking. .__________.Holidays were great and sorry this is gonna be wordy bcos Fb sucks and doesn't allow me to upload picture albums and that is why I have over 300+ pictures to be uploaded ever since 2 weeks ago. They say album upload success rate is higher in the afternoon but WTF HOW ABOUT I'LL NEVER BE HOME IN THE AFTERNOONS FOR 5 OUT OF 7 DAYS IN A WEEEEEEEEK?
Internship is literally like working full time, wearing suffocating work clothes that adds up to your piss level, having to watch your words and language everytime you talk to superiors, trying to decipher their agenda by attempting to read their twisted minds behind anything you do........... It's stress to a whole new level even when we haven't really started on anything yet.
First day the boss treated us to lunch with a 2hr lunch break, let us off at 4pm when we were suppose to knock off at 6.15. Spent the entire day bumming around at the pantry and reading mindless notes.
Today was slightly more productive but stupid in a way as well.
So grumpy wtf.
Going downstairs to find a waterbottle/cup to put on my office table tmr ugh.
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