Thursday, January 21, 2010
Read through my livejournal archive. Revived thoughts I had buried deep down under, images I'd long forgotten.There's this mixed emotion in me on how much things have changed for me. I won't say it's a bad feeling to feel, but then again not something good at the same time. No, I don't make sense.. do I? Maybe I should have appreciated my innocence much more back then, then I wouldn't be so messed up now in so many twisted ways.
Was almost tempted to click the 'delete' button to delete the entire journal but it occured to me that this wasn't just any site, it was two years worth of my life writings and everything that happened and how I felt and how genuine I was to myself in every entry I posted because I had so much privacy in viewership. Suddenly in comparison, my blogspot looks empty meaningless and bimbotic because every other time I pick my words carefully, choose a front I want to put up, build this wall to hold my perfect world together, and then filter away what I hope I would forget years down the road because they weren't what I'd want to happen in the first place.
I'm just always the person that sees things from the point of view I tell myself to see, I don't realise the good I've learnt out of a mistake. It's like I've been lying to myself about how I'm doing for too long a time it makes everything else numb.
Now, I feel like deleting this place instead.
Monday, January 18, 2010
So irrelevant but...
Just when I thought I should splurge on some good perfume getting myself Incanto Heaven by Ferragamo, they bought me another for the 19th birthday. Hahah so sweet la the guys >:) I'm not sure if there's any hidden message to that or anything they want me to mask away...... But whatever I'm starting to use the Estee scent more often lately only because it stays on me longer and I'm pretty hooked on the scent too. Thank god I bought Incanto Heaven for cheap.
This year all the presents came in very small packages and happened to all be very costly/branded. Example: YSL polish from Simran, Agnes B necklace from Price, SK diamond necklace from Derek... I look like brandwhore meh?!?! But hahha ok I love all my presents I'm not complaining but I'm just trying to put my point across that I appreciate sunflowers given as presents too. On the 13th, my day started out fucking bitter and then it became sweeter and slowly turned diabetic towards the end of the night. Everything was simple, nothing extravagant. Maybe, when you hold no expections of anything to happen on that day.... you feel so much more. I really love all my friends. And thanks to all that wished me!! My folks made it great for me this year as well, no present(yet) because when they asked me what I want I said 'Car' and my mum rolled her eyes WTF RIGHT now you know where I get my body language from. It'll be put on hold though sigh my GTI!!!!
I know la, haven't update about the very unexpected celebration for my 19th yet. Amirul's in the midst of helping me to upload the pictures so pls wait and stay tuned while in the meantime it's time for me to giddy up on projects and start getting lecture notes that I've missed.
Ok time to sleep. Back to monday-thursday routine.
Derek better not have confinement this coming week if not I really will cry.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Was spent with only 12 hours apart from book-out time to book-in time.
LIKE INDUSTRIAL GLUE... cannot take it.
Finally went to town together via public transport(FREAKING PROUD OF US) and it was the first time I had the chance to navigate our way instead of him, bearing in mind the very stark difference of how I'm a towner and he's a heartlander. Jap-ed for linner at The Cathay, forced me to get a bday present that I didn't even choose for myself so he could hurry away back to Tampines from the crowd that very crowded Saturday. Sad, what a brief town moment.
The rest of the time.. we just nua-ed at his crib, kept eating until I realised I've gained 3kg, kept watching old hk movies on cable, kept PVZ-ing, kept pillow-fighting........... and I realise he talks gibberish when he takes his nap. I still respond 'huh?' to him wtf feel stupid.
Hopefully I can pass my TP next month then can vrrroom vrrroom around already... provided I stop having the habit of checking my blind spot on the left when I'm turning right and stop feeling so freaking stupid when that happened like twice during my lesson on a very tired sleepless day. Then travelling down to Keat Hong Camp would never be a fucking hassle, and I wouldn't be followed around by wild dogs while waiting around that ulu area for his book-out as well.
Just quite upset he won't be out on Wednesday.
Its the first time I've decided to have a quiet birthday to myself, hahha really weird I'm growing up. Well, not all that quiet anywayyy anyone that have asked me out would be invited to chill at my place on Wed. I've decided that I'll finish school at 1 so lias with the rest if you want to come..................... Don't come also nvm cos I'm sad enough that my mum mistook my birthday for 12th instead of 13th and I received a bday sms from her at 0025 earlier just now. :( And she lied to me saying she just wanted to wish me an advance bday not that she forgot. Lies!!!!
Still sms sia, cannot climb up one level to wish me personally.
Cb.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
I know right..... I've been so behind time on Vodkalisque to update but please don't blame me, blame my school it's been a bitch and all the project deadlines coming up it's taking a toll on my sleeping time.
Eve of eve of eve of 2009: 29 Dec
First time in a very long time we had time to sit down and talk, first time I heard melayu being spoken by Amirul, first time seeing Atiqah, and the first time I had a compliment from David. Strike jackpot man.
Eve of eve of 2009: 30 Dec
(check out the height difference)
All three of us wore waxy jeans on purpose. Pretty gay but mine's from Topshop while the two guys had the same pair from Zara. Forced Jr to watch Avatar 3D because Miko and I were so desperate that the rest of the world watched it already.. except us. IT'S FUCKING GOOOD LAH!!! (i see you ^^)
Stayed alone at Cityhall for one hour... Before
I saw these two!!! (after like close to a year)
We couldn't stop interrupting each other while updating each other on our new chapters in life hahhahah really miss the both of them and the days we stupidly worked at LJS Cineleisure for a stupid pay of $3.50/hr when we were in sec school and how we always played pool after working and the late night conference calls. That was already 5 years back.
We met at Supperclub later at night again after I headed home to put my stuff down. Things pretty much went out of hand for me..... but all's fine in the end.
Got to meet them up soon again before we have a time gap in life news feed again. Hehe.
Eve of 2009
The Price's place for the usual annual routine for the bbq with all the other old neighbours over as well. But we didn't stay there for long, well at least for Shahirah and I. The adults decided to blast the music in their music room that had top range hi-fi system and had fun dancing in their made-pretend club. -.-
Derek fetched me to David's place when we were into our first hour of 2010.
Just because, 'I fetched you when I didn't have to cos I wanted to spend the first minute of 2010 with you' awwwwwww so sweet right, then we spent the first minute of 2010 in the car outside David's condo and I gave him a new year kiss. Happy like cow only, start 2010 with a kiss.
(sorry ah.. uh no pictures for that incident.)
Watched Battle Royale, you got to fucking google that sick show if you haven't watched it to understand the plot the show is so fucking twisted.. cannotch take it. Headed to good old Raimah's for prata and some chit chat. Lots of plans surfaced last minute on eve and somehow I just am in one piece and couldn't be at 4 places at one time.
Spent the rest at night at Derek's place after David's. Fell asleep, didn't answer my mum's 26 missed calls, got many other friends' missed calls, returned my friends' missed calls, went home and got fucked. Hahahhaha. Shitass funny now that i think about it. Well. Obviously not funny then when you were in panic mode then. ._____.
But glad my folks and I had a good talk. Many things fucked up recently between us but you know how they say everything happens for a reason? There's a lot of mutual understanding between us now that we've talked things out. House rules not brokened = freedom earned. I love them for being so understanding that I could no longer spend Sundays with the family... Got to make it up to them somehow but I haven't brainstormed how yet.
Anyway, into 2010 it started good when..
WEIRU AND I TITAN-ED AT SG FLYER!!!
It was such a last minute decision to share the booth with her, I only agreed to help her out with selling the clothes and I was thinking like a big WTF if like I'm gonna be there the whole day I might as well bring my share of loots to get rid off.
(This picture shows only a third of the amount of clothes we had there)
DEREK STONING HAHHAHA WTF
I have double chin and fat arms and messy hair here but it's ok I had to cheer him up by being so bored just sitting there. Miko and Jr were damn sweet to come down as well just to accompany us and Jr's been the one snapping all these pictures while Weiru and I were preoccupied battling the bargaining aunties that at the end of the day we were so auntie also... Shagged, messy hair, sweaty, tired out...... but richer $.$ (by alot!)
There was this girl I didn't even recognise.
Girl: Eh I was from TK also you can give me discount anot?
Me: Uh, really? Haha you my guides senior is it?
Girl: No la I'm your junior. So can I have this for 5$?
Me: (don't recognise her but paiseh to say....) uh ok haha $5 can.
After I gave her change I felt like a loser. WHAT IF SHE WAS LYING TO ME AND WASN'T EVEN FROM TK AT ALL, then I kui qian only. Best I thought she was my senior but no she was my junior. Wtf until now I still can't recall seeing that face anywhere during my secondary school days at all. Ok I'm very convinced I got conned already...
There's so many to thank for that made this happen! Hinfan for the ride there if not we would have died over and over again. Miko + Jr for assistance and company and helping us to get drinks and helping me to guide Derek to the booth when it was impossible for me to get away. Derek for getting us food and keeping my cash safe and counting my cash time to time and packing up and the ride back with the Vios squeezed to the brim (it was such a funny sight to see the entire car so filled up but we were so exhuasted to take a shot), and not forgetting Rachel who was over at my place the day before.. helping me to pack up the clothes what a way to spend the new year but she was a great help in any case. LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saw many faces that day as well. Got rid of more than half my load of unwanted clothes and spent nothing at the other booths at the flea. The logic of how you want to buy everything when you have no cash and how everything doesn't look good enough to be bought when you have cash stands true in this very example.
Should I still continue the post? It's fucking long already and it's 3.05am.
Fuck la ok just continue, school start on monday I'll probably disappear from the face of this page again.
Anyway, 3 jan(sunday) the next day after Flea Titans the relatives came over to my place for some celebration before my youngest uncle goes back to Perth again.
This is my youngest cousin, he and his sis added me on Fb and it made me feel so restricted on my language when I post a new status or comment. Ugh.
This is the oldest cousin. The best of a bigger brother I could ever ask for.
There's only like 5 of us on my dad's side to complete the entire 3rd generation. You see four there because Roy's in Taiwan as a medic for army right now. We've decided that my Canon lens cap would represent him. HAHHA.
7th jan(thursday), WEIRONG'S 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!
(the after effect of having 10 hours of sleep for 3 days.. eyebags spam)
I don't think I'd ever mentioned that I have a bird at home. Pretty insignificant to me la cos only my parents are in love with it cos whenever they go 'Poppy!' the bird chirps and it makes them happy. .___.
Maybe because it came free to us more than a year or two ago when it flew into our toilet window and refused to leave the house.
All of them were pretty intrigued by Poppy only because the dogs were put the basement because Weirong was so scared of them that she cried when Rex barked at her LOL FUCKING FUNNY MAKE BDAY GIRL CRY ON HER BDAY.
So we had prata sausage cheese hotdogs along with chicken wings and alot of the usual expected BBQ stuff that we shopped for at Bedok before heading back to my place. No one said anything about a birthday cake... I think Weirong jitao damn sad already by the time we were done eating and there was still no cake, but you saw the watermelon Imee was holding(looks above) right?
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI RONG!!!!!
HAHA WTF WATERMELON FOR A BIRTHDAY CAKE.
Thanks to Chang who came late and bought the candles.
I just learnt how to do an animation with CS4 and here goes an example:
LOL CUTE OR WHAT?
There's many more like the guys did the buddha of many hands thing but I'll do all animations again another time.
Had the best time of our lives talking about people from sec school and just laughing over dumb incidents that happened then. They make me miss sec school so much! Upper sec times to be specific. These people made the best class ever.
Ok I am so done with the longest post I'd ever had in a trillion years and it's 5.36am now.. currently talking to Jo complaining to her how this post is taking forever while uploading the pics and blogging. And she went,
Since when you're not ugly... HAHHAHA
But fuck a few just told me I look like Jo in my MSN dp(the one you see above).
Then like that I'm also ugly. :(
