Friday, February 26, 2010
Naked truth over the best-dressed lies
EVERYDAY IS LEPAK TTM I AM A HAPPY GIRL, ONLY THAT I NEED TO SHED THE 4 KG I GAINED FROM EXCESSIVE EATING DURING EXAM PERIOD. 2KG DOWN............ ANOTHER 2 TO GO. BESIDES THIS, YES LIFE IS GOOD. NO NOT REALLY. FEEL LIKE A LOSER THAT THE AFTER-PAPERS MOOD ISN'T ALL THAT THERE WHEN YOU KNOW YOUR BOYFEE IS SUFFERING IN OUTFIELD WITH A DUMBASS RIFLE. SO YES, BESIDES THESE TWO THINGS LIFE IS GOOD.
(my papers sucked though...... but fuck it exams are over we can worry about results later!!!)
Friday, February 19, 2010
Piling on the makeup lately because of the bad complexion. And then I failed to realise it's actually a greater long term horrendous effect when the chemical eats my skin up gently. Gently.
And nope, CNY wasn't re nao. It was quiet as hell but not that I'm complaining I actually prefer it quiet. I didn't even buy any new year clothes and this velour dress was what I ripped off from Mango when they had a 70% off sale awhile back.. I know la hei lu lu la I kena scolded by cab driver when I was on my way to Derek's granny's for wearing such a heilulu colour on chu yi. Wtf not like you're my father still scold me!!!
Well. Surprisingly, I never got less than $10 in an angbao this time round. Amazing much? I used to always get $6, or sometimes $4. Angbao count this year was unexpectedly better than anticipated, even when we didn't do visiting since we're still in the mourning period. And my dad bao-ed me the biggest angbao he ever did since I was young. Idk what's his hidden agenda behind the huge amount but, I guess I'm not spending it.
At night...
Valentines' night at Barrage with like 435443 other couples all littered over the same area.
Should have known better.......
I look gross here but... Min Er freaking cute here (as usual).
I'm trying to smile like her but like a bit fail.
Pictures from everywhere: random days just nua-ing at home watching the telly, movie at Downtown two weeks ago, shades at my balcony while smoking like wtf, looking through his childhood photos, Min Er playing around with the SLR. (last few shots taken by her, not bad ah!!!)
She actually snapped a lot pictures of us with the SLR of which that picture above was the best without a shutter. I was worried she'll drop it since it's so heavy for someone so puny like her.
Paper starts in 10 hours, I'm only halfway through revision.
Sigh, this always happen I feel like I forgot how to study.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Someone once told me... "Wallets are a lot like loving someone. You really have to take good care of it, because if you won't, something might just happen."I know what he meant. I just lost a wallet... it's the exact same thing.
That very day, realization hits you that you really lost it. You tried looking for it everywhere, even tracing back on the places you’ve gone where you might have dropped it. The thought manifests your mind so much, only to come upon a grim realization after while: it's really gone.
But of course, you could still pin hopes on getting the wallet back. After all, it’s a one in a million chance for you to be that lucky one that gets your wallet back to where it belongs.
Perhaps you could become one of those that sit by the telephone day and night, hoping that someone would call and you would get it back. But as the days pass, that glimpse of hope in getting it back fades as well. You then remind yourself again that yes, you really lost it.
The first few days, it’s your friends you turn to for support. There are some that tell you you'll be fine, some that tell you that you deserved it with your carelessness and it was your own fault, while some would share their own stories about losing theirs. They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before, and none that made you feel any better unless you knew it’s time to let go.
You start your search in finding a new wallet, only to realize that no; you don’t want a new one. You want the old one that you lost. No, you don't want all those better-looking ones or those with Prada or Gucci labelled all over it - you want the one that you lost, only because of how comfortable it was, because of all the cards and pictures and all the other sentimental items you had in it.
You decide to go without a wallet when you’re out, keeping the loose notes in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would of have held on to if you had your old wallet to put it into. Time passes as you made do without a wallet, while you wait for the perfect one you really liked to appear before your eyes.
And when it finally does, you see yourself starting to fill the new wallet, little by little. Sure, doesn’t the old one feel so much more comfortable? But it's getting there - you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff into it. Before you know it, this new wallet suddenly holds as much as what the old one held. You bring it wherever you go; you take it out when you need it. Suddenly you find yourself holding this new wallet dear to you, suddenly you feel like it really belongs to you.
And through this all, you suddenly realized that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet, that old wallet you lost. Well yes, you still do remember what you lost along with it... All those little things that you had in it. But then again, the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it no longer lingers in you anymore.
That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet. You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding, this wallet has everything you now need, everything that you would want to bring along with you wherever you go.
This is your wallet.
And this time, you tell yourself, you're never losing this one.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
On the usual phone conversation every night.Girlfriend: Can I tell you something?
Boyfriend: What?
Girlfriend: I'm panicking for Valentine's cos I didn't do anything.
Boyfriend: Actually I'm panicking too.
Girlfriend: Huh you mean you don't know what to do on the day itself yet!
Boyfriend: Actually I do. We're gonnna... (starts blurting out plan unintentionally when it's suppose to be a surprise)
Haha, so cute.
I love you. :)
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
I spend more days missing you, than seeing you
(Nope, I wasn't in the right state of mind)
Pictures from Naiyu's departure for Perth on Sunday morning. Note the shagged faces of Wilberg and I in contrast to all the other very awake faces around. We love Nai so much that finishing his scrapbook meant that we could forsake a night's sleep for it. Hopefully the scrapbook could pass the customs... because we attached a condom in one of the pages in case of emergency while he's there and well uh, we heard the customs do not allow condoms to be passed LOL LOL LOL.
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Todya isn't the best day of my life.
This is gonna sound funny but I couldn't study today bcos I was overstressed by the fact that study progress is nil and everyone that I know, know that I eat excessively when I'm stressed. So to conclude, I overate today - snacked like a motherfucker, caffeine overdose as well, and ended up with a headache and a tummy upset while I was at Price's place.
Knnb, wanna study also so hard but Price said I was just making an excuse for myself not to concentrate. K..... Maybe I was but it doesn't matter now cos the day is over and I can't fucking buy back the two days I've wasted not studying.
Apart from this, aircon leaked when I got home. So I'm sleeping over at the guest room today. Well, not really sleeping.. It's more of napping since I'll have to be up at 430am again to fetch my folks and godfolks to the airport. THEY'RE GOING TO HONGKONG FOR A HOLIDAY WITHOUT ME COS I'LL HAVE TO STUDY FOR MY PAPERS.
Then after the aircon's down I heard my mum screaming from downstairs that my phonebill exceeded again for the second month running when she was doing the night routine opening up the mails.
$182.60, my bill was never over 50 to start with since two months ago. Then we both realised that my plan changed since 2010 and fucking M1 didn't have the motherfucking decency to notify us and since the last month's phone explosion I've been forking out from my own allowance to top up on how much I've exceeded and it's no joke when it eats up 3/4 of my monthly allowance.
That made my mum and I two very bitchy women in the study room, arguing about how it isn't right for me to pay the excess when I didn't know that the bill changed already cos she didn't tell me anyway(cos it's under her account) and she argued saying she didn't know either and it was my responsibility to check. And then it was the best time for my dad to charge into the room and heated the argument up even more when he was pissed no one told him my aircon leaked in advance(WHEN WTF IT JUST STARTED LEAKING AN HOUR AGO?!??!) and he couldn't repair the aircon in my room.
We were a very angsty family of three for a good one hour.
And I'm pretty sure I hyperventilated.
I'm probably gonna miss them for the few days that they'll be away but right now in the mood that I am, I wished I had the whole damn house to myself.
On top of it all, Derek actually had MC for both Monday and Tuesday. He should be booked out, but SAF is cruel......... he's not allowed to book out even when he's sick. So. God. Damn. Fucked. Up.
I miss him and it's driving me even more crazy with what's already been going on.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
My mum just called me from home telling me that she accidentally opened up a school letter that was address to me from the mailbox(I'll like to think she's suspecting the usual attendance warning letters) and told me that my internship attachment is at fucking Commonwealth.DO I HAVE FATE WITH THE WEST SIDE OF SG OR SMTH?!?!
I thought I could take a break with tedious traveling distance from east to west once my internship with Royal Bank of Scotland starts but it seems like I'll probably have to wake up even earlier when working hours are from 8.45 to 6.15 Monday to Friday. :(
So anyhoo school's out till the papers start on 19th this month. Nope, I haven't started on revision at all because blame my lousy life balancing skills I've been filling my social life too full to the brim it tires me out that I actually have a very bad pimple outbreak as of now..
I'm currently at my weekend home. My boyfriend is still asleeep and I'm bored with nothing to do I kept smelling my own blouse just to recall what perfume I used this morning. Not that it's of any significance........ I'm just that bored.
He was the sweetest tart to stay up with Wilberg and I at my place to finish up Naiyu's farewell scrapbook last night from 1.45am - 7.15am and fetched us to the airport then after. Feel fucking guilty now that's why I don't dare to wake him up later he grouchy tiger.
And yes, Nai left for Perth this morning already that idiot cried and I see him cry I also wanna cry but I was so zonked I couldn't absorb that very moment. NOW FEEL SAD LIKE FUCK ONLY CAN'T SEE HIM FOR 3(wait, or is it 5) YEARS?!?! Would really love to upload pictures of his teary eyes now but then again like I've said I scared to wake Derek up...
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I've decided that there will be no school for me for Wednesday and Thursday because.... the pain of travelling 3 hours back and forth to school for stupid mindless couple of hours lesson isn't worth my time. I seriously lack sleep these days, even Derek's complexion is better than mine(ok it has always been better anyway BUT) and he's in NS and sigh just a tad depressing that your boyfriend's complexion is flawless while your own skin is gross and oily that now you need 3 Daiso blotting papers to matte it out when mid-day comes.Last Saturday.... I brought my grandmother to Chinatown and she is queen there because she was the one leading Derek and I around everywhere while we had to take quicker steps to catch up. We went shopping together finding only blouses that were under $10 if not she refuses to buy even if it's $11.90 LOL. Rushed for my last ever driving lesson in the afternoon then after and then we went to a new place.
I'm pretty used to not knowing where we're going when he takes the wheel until we get there and I'll ask where we are. Always kena 'shhh'-ed when I relentlessly go on and on with questions during the ride. Since I'm tired of getting shh-ed and he's tired of hearing it and then 'shh'-ing me already so after awhile I've learnt to shut up and enjoy the ride.
So fucking beautiful, no? Ok I really love the sea view. I was so scared I was gonna drop my things into the sea when we sat at the edge of the platform... Paranoia.
Good thing I took the camera back from Shearen in time earlier in the day. However bitchy she is she was so nice to exchange shoes with me when we met at Kembangan since mine gave way while getting there and she walked on my half-fucked sandals back home from the station. For one day Shearen was so nice it was such an abnormal day...
Bacon plus jap mushroom: DOPE. Didn't come cheap to eat a buffet there though... My heart ached when I saw the bill. :(
We made it up by settling at Siglap for budget lunch the next day. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise that I forgot the PIN number to my UOB account which I'd just set up recently... Somehow it's like savings that can't be withdrawn and therefore it forces me to save. As pathetic as this may sound it's working and I'm confused if I should head down to the bank to reset the PIN or not.
Say hi to Min Er. She's a kid that plays Plants vs. Zombies - except that she never ever completes one game at all bcos she always clicks the exit game button just when she knows she's about to die and go 'I don't want to play already' HAHAHHHA can vomit blood when I watch her play PVZ.
This is only 30% of her widest smile. When she smiles...
1) She wants to play with your handphone camera.
2) She wants to eat/drink your food/drink.
3) She wants you to youtube 'Barney' for her bcos she doesn't know how to spell.
(her PJs is a giveaway on how big a Barney fan she is.)
Automatic open my bag to find my phone when I lied to her a blangah stole it... not shy only.
Now my phone's spammed with horribly taken pictures that's full of shutters. Lucky she's adorable if not I'll be annoyed by now... She spammed my MSN convo with Pei as well and claims she's chatting with my friend when it's gibberish language when I wasn't paying attention. (!!!)
The only good thing about her is how she could annoy Derek awake when she plays stupid nursery rhymes on Youtube in his room. Saves me the time to wait for him to wake up.
Slyvia, Derek's mum and I debating if it is appropriate to test water in a relationship. Derek's mum was all out against it while Slyvia and I were like, 'EH WE HAVE PRIDE AND YES MUST TEST WATER' See.... the difference in mentality has a direct relationship with the difference in age gap.
Hopefully I'll successfully drive down to CCK this Thursday afternoon to pick Derek up from his godforsaken camp. Cos YES, AS OF 1ST FEBRUARY I AM A CERTIFIED DRIVER COOL OR WHAT!!!!!! I was still harping over it yesterday but today my excitement died to zero already.
I never expected myself to pass in fact, and yeah yeah yeah stop going on already on how testers are more lenient with girls. I didn't wear a short skirt nor did I wear a low top on Monday.. I was just humble when I made an immediate failure mistake. And ironically, it was after he said 'So far you haven't made any mistakes keep it up' I think I was so happy it distracted me and I striked the kerb at my vertical parking and then turned out to the opposing traffic lane in the circuit right after that.
Kan chiong ma.
But doesn't matter, I PASSED ALREADY AND I WOULDN'T NEED TO RETAKE AND RELEARN PARKING WITHOUT POLES.
Derek was so confident I was gonna pass he didn't bring money to camp since 'you will fetch me and I won't need to cab', as quoted. My mum was so supportive of me as well that very day, sending me to the centre and then waiting for me to do the admin stuff and rushed a car ride down to school for CFAS presentation after that.
She was the one that paid for my P plate that have already been pasted to her Saab. But she complained that people on the road bullied her and horned her for nothing when they thought she was noob with the P plate on the car HAHHAHHAHAHHA FREAKING FUNNY.
I took my first drive on my mum's Saab just now and everyone in the car told me they felt car-sick. :(
Monday, February 1, 2010
This is the Man of the House. I know how everyone thinks he's so stern and all when you guys come over to my place... But really, my dad's the funniest person ever when he's drunk. Maybe I should always get him drunk on wine before people come over to my place so they'll have a tweaked impression. Hahha ok no relevance to photos above.
So the idea of posting this up is I actually realise I have very little pictures with my folks. We went to Trader's Hotel to eat one night before my 19th birthday.
Back home, each of them sayang their favourite. Jay's pregnant again ugh we were a day late in seperating them when she was on heat. See her protuding nipples?!
On 13th Jan itself...
Simple lunch at Pizza Hut with my favourites from school. Roamed Clementi area after that for some hardcore ketchup sessions and that afternoon saw us running from block to block in desperation for a toilet. We were so desperate when Pei and I were high tide we even tried ringing doorbells HHAHAHAHA. Fuck we were on the verge of considering the staircase when I asked an old lady at the void deck if there was any toilets nearby and THANK GOD THERE WAS A MINDS' CAFE LOOKING PLACE that saved our bladder.
Quite hilarious to think about what happened man.
Went home that day anticipating a very quiet dinner with a few closed ones.
Doesn't look very quiet, I know right. I just had to say this again. Turned out different groups of people had plans for me all at the same time so everyone just turned up at my place in the end. My mum was going on about how there wasn't enough foood. This is the best example of how you feel so much happier with no expectations. I really expected nothing on the birthday, because......... wtf so old already celebrate what birthday shit siah.
People who turned up:
SO MUCH FOR QUIET.. There was so many more that I should have invited if I knew there was actually gonnna be a crowd but I guess most people couldn't make it on two hours' notice. Doesn't matter all my friends are still awesome anyway. Love every single one of you :)
Mud and his minah girlfriend. HAHHA OK I'M KIDDING
All the 'more than two years older than me but act like my age' guys!!! (Bao and Wj never come.... sad only)
Both set of parents / My mum and I have a stark resemblence here don't you think so?
Too happy for my own good I had to laugh so unglamly. Considering how the day actually started out bad in the beginning..... Yeah hella good to have such good friends.
All of them were mocking me when my cake was so badly sliced.
Closest pair of friends that are a couple.. Happy 4 years the both of you :)
Rachel made it even though she had tons of projects to be done that day, she and Ni both bought a sunflower for me from the same florist at Bedok Inter. Coincidence much? Her bday's next.
Now all the JC kids done with their As look more fashionable than the poly kids who are still dying at school.
NOT FORGETTING THE BEST FRIEND!! How many years have we known each other for again?
(I'm actually at her place trying to do work now but I ended up blogging ugh...)
Decided to take pictures of everyone individually, I look pretty screwed up in most of the pics cos ok, I was tired of smiling LOL. Simran went off early and I can't seem to find a proper picture of us taken together :(
Yeah you don't see this moron in most of the pictures bcos she decided that she would isolate herself ON MY BIRTHDAY and prove her intelligence by hogging onto Wilberg's iTouch to play some highly intellectual game to prove her stand that she's not math-stupid.
Truth is she still is sooo...........
Ok back to more pictures.
(HA HA HA DON'T KILL ME OK I STILL THINK YOU LOOK HOT HERE)
Every other time there'll be a afterparty..
Abit high already I know... Only berg and I hardcore drink. Hin had to drive and don't mind Nai he doesn't drink so his little bit of alcohol intake was too much for his blood. Weiru was still going on about her stupid iTouch and Price....... no that season clubber she doesn't get high that easily.
I know it's really late to post this up but better late than never and thank you everyone that made it so happening :)
Will post more photos up the next few days pinky promize.
