Friday, August 28, 2009
"How does wearing your old shirt to sleep gets me closer to you; the whimpers in the night to your ears through the nothingness of my heart? How do I still inflict on this, when numbness is what takes over, for I feel nothing when the blade slits the skin, nothing when the tears fall in fear?"
Thursday, August 27, 2009
(daddy couldn't stop checking his kids out, we had to lock him out)
WE'VE BEEN FUCKING ANTICIPATING JAYJAY TO DELIVER SINCE THE 17TH AND SHE'S 10 DAYS LATE. My dad rushed back from work, my mum rushed back when she was out, and my mum came out again to fetch me from Cheryl's place and it pretty much interrupted my FRP 'crashcourse'(more like chitchat session hor Smurf), but by the time I reached home it was only the fourth one left to be delivered.
Better than nothing I guess, the delivery's gruesomely adorable and it went exactly the same as the previous time.. Full of blood. Cute pups. And the second one being the bridge once again. Only that there's one more than the previous litter, and how there's three guys and a girl - the other time it was a trio of females.
She's currently milking the four of them right now at the basement; Rex was so persistent on going down to check his kids out that he knocked the plastic container barrier over and it toppled and made a loud thud sound and got scared and ran back up again. Don't know who's the pussy siah really.
It's a very love/hate day, because you'll be seeing me at FP tutorials again next sem and that's a sure thing. I left early after filling in the empty spaces on the answer sheet to make it look better.
My answers were empty, and substance-less.
I'm really burnt out from trying to finish everything of three modules only the day before.
There's only FRP left for now, glad?
Yeah I'm very glad.
But when it ends, what was I looking forward to again?
I realised that I don't know anymore.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Breather needed. I'm so stressed I've been having weird dreams lately.I dreamt that I kidnapped everyone at a Uniqlo Store with three other bandits and we were suppose to go to Serangoon Gardens for our hideout. Along the way one of us was a traitor and killed another one of us and so I decided to kill her(yeah it's all 4 girly bandits) and that's left with the two of us. While we wasted our time clearing up the evidence at the killing scene like a whole police force caught up on us and the lady detective happened to be like... Sheldon's friend's gf. HAHAHHA LIKE WTF. Apparently this person is away at Beijing now and in the dream I was like, 'EH I THOUGHT YOU'RE AWAY AT BEIJING??' and she was like 'I LIED COS I'M AN UNDERCOVER DETECTIVE.'
LIKE WTF MAN. So anyway how it ended was that I shot her in the legs so she was handicapped and since she was my friend, the other bandit and I carried her all the way to Serangoon Gardens with us.
Our hideout was a hotel rooom.
Not weird meh? LIKE I WAS A TERRORIST??
I dreamt about Jo few days back as well.
Like how I visited her at US, and when she picked me up at the airport she said I looked aunty and halfway through the journey to her place we had to change to a smaller car cos 'the road to my house very narrow and need a narrow-er car'. And then that narrow-er car was parked in some random carpark when we had to change over to it. THERE WERE FUCKING BIRDS BITING ON HER SEATS and I was like 'EH JO GOT BIRDS INSIDE!!' and she told me 'uh it happens all the time' and I WAS WONDERING WHY.
Then suddenly when she opened up the 'car', it wasn't really a car even though there were four wheels. It was like... two bicycles attached adjacent to each other and to move it we both had to pedal at the same time LIKE HAHHAHAHHA WTF MAN.
The ridiculous dream went on for awhile after that but that was the ultimate highlight of it. I woke up laughing like fuck I decided that if the next time I went online and do not see Jo online, I'm gonna email her about it.
TALK ABOUT... DREAMFUL NIGHTS.
Okay dreams aside I guess.
Cos.
I don't know how I'm gonna continue to study 7 more chapters of FMGT but I'm fucking gonna do it.
Cos I thought it was only a 30/40% weightage for tmr's paper, BUT NO REALITY HITS ME AND I REALISED IT'S A DICKING 50%?!?!
LIKE WTF YOU DETERMINE HALF OUR GRADE WITH JUST A FEW STUPID(okay... not really that way of stupid) QUESTIONS?!?!
At least the first two papers went pretty okay, well maybe that's because I spent all my time on FIT and the weekends on AAA, totally leaving the other three papers out.
Maybe the real way to concentrate is to lock my laptop away.
I dropped off the early stop of 24 and went to Sheldon's place instead of Expo because I needed to settle dinner and his mum cooked for me. So I studied in his room, no distractions - because he locked his Mac in the drawer before leaving me in his room for basketball at the CC.
Smart ah.
See I really wished I could do the same for my laptop, but what happens when I have the key to my own locked drawer....
Sunday, August 23, 2009
1. Thank all those that helped me with revision for the papers. Because without answer keys to tutorials(I HAVE NONE AT ALL), without clarification, without pressure... I would fucking screw up more. Maybe I'll get them red bulls before the remaining papers or smth...2. Clear my very messy room and make it my place of Zen. Yeah, zen. Okay that depends on how long I could mantain it neat.
3. And when it's neat, I'll put up all the photographs I'd always wanted to paste all over the walls. I want to get beanbags to put it in front of the telly as well... But seems like Molecule's the only place that has it and Molecule is, overpriced.
4. Picnic. Zoo. Science Centre. And probably the beach for some dipping in the waters and a fufilling tan.
5. Facial. Nabei this should definitely be on top of the list I HAVE PIMPLES ON MY CHEEKS.
6. Replenish the bank balance, for a serious wardrobe renewal. CHIONG EBAY!!! ^^
7. Get a decent phone that has all the buttons working. I'm worse off than an army boy.
8. Quit playing Plants Vs. Zombies (looks at two posts below)
9. Run everyday so Flabby wouldn't be my name anymore.
10. Drink. Alcohol level's not really good so I need little to get wasted. Just have to make sure I have Sheldon around to satisfy my biting fetish when I'm drunk.
11. Think about my future after poly. With a horrible GPA. SMU = gone.
12. Party.
13. Party.
14. Party.
I wanted to come up with a list so I'll feel motivated enough to try harder for the papers - though it's pretty impossible to finish on 2.5 modules of revision untouched within 4 days.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Shahirah Bte Abdul Azhur Price
(I wished I could find more hilarious pictures but THERE'S TIME CONSTRAINT I HAVEN'T FINISHED STUDYING FOR FUCKIN FIT TMR)
Not too late to wish you HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!
I had close to 2 decades of your:
1. BIMBOTICNESS
2. STRANGOSITY
3. UTTER RUBBISH
4. SPONTANEOUSNESS
5. MORE RUBBISH
6. CRAZY WHACKY IDEAS
7. EVEN MORE RUBBISH
But it's okay I love you all the same for whatever dumb shit you've ever done to me, like.... alot of dumb shit you did to me. There's too many for me to decide from.
Hahha I LOVE YOU LAH.
See you tomorrow, hope you'll have a good one in the night!!
xoxo
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Yeah.
I'm addicted again.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
So many nights, lets tangle tight
(hair fugly like always but it's okay we look very happy)
1 year 6 months, this was the biggest lamest excuse for the both of us to be really generous with money. On my part, being really generous with time as well. I felt no guilt being out the whole day... Just to bump into Mas at Ion(HAHHAHA THAT ASSHOLE SPIKED HIS HAIR, why doesn't he ever spike his hair when he's with us?), but like he need to study like that.
Caugt G.I. Joe, then Xin Wang for dinner. And shopping after that. I thought I wouldn't be getting anything at all for the day but when we entered Paragon at 9plus, I blew 50bucks at Miss Selfridge and ProjectShop. Kwaaaaaaa we should have gone later so all the shops would be closed and I wouldn't need to see all those %%%%%%%% signs. It's. Temptation Island.
The night ended on a special enough note, when I've got someone to send me home. LIKE I REALLY FELT LIKE A PRINCESS SKATING ON ICE.
We live really close by but the bus journey takes 30-45mins, so getting sent home is a privilege and not a habit I got used to. Like I've said, I'm #1 low mantainence girlfriend with an added plus factor: extra niam. Maybe shouldn't be so sticky anymore cos we should both learn to be grown-ups and dream big!!!!!!
18 months not long lah hor. It's just that I can't believe I had your corrugated plastic iloveyou sign sitting by my table for more than a year already. It felt like just yesterday.
1 year 6 months reminds me of that Yellowcard song.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
What I really need tomorrow, is a ride to school in the afternoon and back to the east again for really hardcore studying. I can't believe I'm actually heading to school just to pass the receipts to claim our cost for the NDC stall to Stephen Tham, who still pronouces the name as ahhbeegill when he called me up just now for the reminder. It's like taking a 3-hour ride to and fro, for a 15 minutes errand.It's fucking dumb.
At the rate my revision's going, I'll probably only be prepared well with 2 chapters out of every module when it's time for the paper. Today I went shopping after two chapters of AAA and got satisfied with a 9$ Topshop buy. When I got back and looked at it again I forgot why I even got it in the first place. I haven't shopped in the longest time, the vibe for this addiction has almost gone dead on me ever since I'd stopped spending when I saved up for the camera.
I used to be able to scrutinise my train of thoughts as quickly as I could spot an item out of the rack, it was like an imaginary checklist that I had going through my mind before the decision to pay at the counter. Shopping to me was like reading the bible every night for a staunch christian.... I was that obsessed that I didn't repeat outfits but now I repeat them like knnbcbb super unforgivable. Good for my account balance though, I've been seeing three digits of late. It's not much, but how about telling you I'd always had one digit account balances back in those days.
I got to do some shopping anyhow because I lack lepak clothes to be comfy in. Tired to dress up everyday already. Abygail Tan is entering a new phase. ._______.
Anyway.
I really got to give it up to Sheldon for the company today at Gloria Jeans. I should of had joined Imee and Weiru at Expo so he could do without 5 bleak hours surfing mindless random things on his Mac, while I was barely surviving accounting across that same table.
After the papers, there's so many things I wanna do. I really want to go to Malaysia to gai gai!!! I don't care who I'm going with or how I'm going there, the bottomline ends on the note of: I just need and want to be there. I haven't been there in what, a decade??! I know I'm damn nooob but I haven't even been to Genting. Wtf I'm an 18-year-old Singaporean and I haven't been to Genting.
Who's gonnna bring wring yring meeeeeeeeeeeeee?
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I don't wanna be somewhere and realise this feeling's gone
Decided to bring the dogs out to Pasir Ris on National Day's afternoon. My mum insisted that Rex should totally learn how to socialise since he thinks he's the biggest alpha dog around all the time, always picking fights with random dogs when they're out for walks. I guess we totally got it wrong when we thought Jayjay would of have been the more sociable one......... She ended being more focused on the bananas my mum brought. T.T (look at her sparkly eyes in picture 6) I know the last picture is damn fail, my dad couldn't figure out how to zoom on the cam. Damn tech savvy man.
I pretty much had a whole family day shit going on for Sunday. Because we headed to Price's place for the usual all the old neighbours gathering... Great food great drinks, and my dad fast asleep on the sofa less than halfway through the night after a few glasses - as usual.
Simran didn't join us cos she was out of town. :( Sjp please meet up soon I miss your rubbish like quite bad?
Monday's afternoon was spent at Sheldon's auntie's crib. They rented the whole clubhouse for the afternooon. Plan was to study, study in games room alone... But yeah lah you know me I couldn't resist, ended up playing a horrible game of pool(I suck badly) with his cousins and spent the rest of the time chatting with Hongping.
She and Jerrome should just get married, they're been dating for 4 and a half years and REALLY JUST GET MARRIED. I GIVE YOU BIG HONGBAO.
Camwhore of the afternooon?
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FAT CHEEKS ALERT!!
Once Xuanxuan realised that Jermayne has been snapping pictures of her she just kept posing and giving monkey faces and posing somemore. There's a lot more pictures but I've decided to do a filter. She's damn cute so I guess it balances out on how annoying she can get. HAHHA.
Sheldon just got his helmet "that's matt black and it's damn cooooool!", as quoted, this afternooon and he's having his first practical on Thursday. Idk man I hope this whole thing would work with how my parents are very against the idea of me riding on bikes. It's gonna be damn hard to keep it from them cos the ratio of us spending time outside and at home is 1:4.
And I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GONNA COPE WITH MY FEAR ON RIDING BIKES. I just rode Peishi's from school to Tampines today and she was going at 100km/h or somewhere there and I felt like I was gonna die. Better still she told me to get her cashcard from her butt pocket and I was like fucking nervous like really really nervous I was gonna drop her wallet or something and like she'll look back and go 'wtf happened' and when she doesn't look front we'll bang into some car and both fly and buang only LIKE IT COULD HAPPEN RIGHT. I didn't squeal like the first time, I just acted cool. But I think I totally gave myself away when her shoulders were wet from my sweaty palms.
I got to get over myself I'm a loser.
